I AM ADDICTED!
I crave it, I search for it and eat things I don't want or need to try and satisfy it.
The only problem with a food addiction is that you can't do without it! You HAVE to eat! Some days I wish I was addicted to cigarettes or booze....those I could avoid if I had to. But with a family and myself to feed, I must face food everyday.
Now, some could say, well, just surround yourself with healthy food. That would be a valid point and I am going to attempt to argue them ( and then prove to myself how silly my reasoning's sound)
1) I have kids and a husband that can eat the "good stuff", why should I deprive them, just because I can't stay out?
- Well, I guess one could argue that they don't need it either and by not providing them with it, they learn healthier lifestyles. But then, what would I bribe or reward them with? Oh right...that just teaches them that food makes them feel good, so later on in life when they are sad or hurt, they grab the junk to ease the pain. At this point, the treats will stay. It makes my kids happy and come on, how can you turn away from a chocolate kiss!
2) I don't like many fruits or vegetables, that was the way I was raised.
- While it's true that I wasn't asked to try difference foods when I was younger, I only ASSUME I don't like most of them. I could write a list as long as my arm full of foods I don't like, but truthfully, there would probably only be a couple on there I have tried. Sure you say, you are an adult now... just try them. Do you know how expensive food is now a days? It would be so wasteful to buy all this new produce, try one bite and throw it all away. I don't really know how to cook any of them, besides the obvious boiling. Ok, then hide them in foods...mask the flavor. That might be well and good if YOU were cooking for me, but as the cook, I still know they are in there and will automatically "taste" them and not enjoy my meal
So, there you have it. Those are my 2 major excuses.
Trying to encourage myself to do better, I have resorted to posting signs to remind me:
|Note on the fridge|
|Note inside the cupboard door|
See, they mean business....they have my middle name on them...and you know how much trouble it is when your middle name is involved!
The days of the week I am home are the toughest for me. At work, I pack things to eat and that is it! At home, I browse in the cupboard, grab something I don't need, like marshmallows or chocolate chips.
Today, I would say I ate less, but not necessarily better. I am working up to eating better slowly. That change will be hard, but if I can move a bit more and eat a little less, for now it should balance itself out.
Until next time,